Exhaustion means that our vital energies are completely worn out and spent. Spiritual exhaustion is never the result of sin, but of service. Whether or not you experience exhaustion will depend on where you get your supplies. Jesus said to Peter, “Feed My sheep,” but He gave him nothing with which to feed them. The process of being made broken bread and poured-out wine means that you have to be the nourishment for other people’s souls until they learn to feed on God. They must drain you completely— to the very last drop. But be careful to replenish your supply, or you will quickly be utterly exhausted. Until others learn to draw on the life of the Lord Jesus directly, they will have to draw on His life through you. You must literally be their source of supply, until they learn to take their nourishment from God. We owe it to God to be our best for His lambs and sheep, as well as for Him.
Have you delivered yourself over to exhaustion because of the way you have been serving God? If so, then renew and rekindle your desires and affections. Examine your reasons for service. Is your source based on your own understanding or is it grounded on the redemption of Jesus Christ? Continually look back to the foundation of your love and affection and remember where your Source of power lies. You have no right to complain, “O Lord, I am so exhausted.” He saved and sanctified you to exhaust you. Be exhausted for God, but remember that He is your supply. “All my springs are in you” (Psalm 87:7).
So, also on this day I went for a run. I have thankfully been running more and I think it is totally helping any anxiety I might have or been having. I prayed for pretty much everyone in my life, and not just generally, but specifically to things that I knew they were going through. It made the 45 minutes I was running (up and down hills) go by so much faster. It's just amazing what being outside (I won't say in nature because I was running through a neighborhood-though it is my neighborhood) can do, and obviously the added benefit of one on one time with God. Seriously, people who don't talk to God are missing out. It doesn't have to be in a church (though it certainly can) but just taking the time to talk to the one that created you and to listen...it's priceless.
Picture from my run :)
I suppose the point of this post was to be that I was exhausted spiritually, but that is ok, and even necessary...because I know where to go to replenish my supply. There is more that I want to write about but alas, I'm spent for the day.
On a happy note: I was reunited with my sweet pup! I went and go her from my mom tonight and it was a splendid reunion to say the least!