5 days...5 exams. A week of craziness for sure. I was pretty much a hermit with the exception that I go to school with some of my best friends so I got to see A LOT of them this week...AND...I had an extremely good HAPPY HIGH yesterday afternoon after my hardest (read poorly made) finals.
ELW and I went to lunch...and not just any lunch...the best lunch (perfect weather, food, convos). We went to highland bakery and she brought her camera and was snapping pics outside and I felt like I was having lunch with a cool photographer...ha. Then we went so she could get a tat...and in about the most roundabout way possible, it did finally happen. It was really just lovely.
So here comes 2 weeks offff...and what do I plan to do?? 1. sleep 2. lay out 3. read 4. go to appt's 5. clean (room, bookshelf, bathroom, head, life) 6. see my friendsss
Those things sound lovely! Oh yes, I will still be working but I don't like to include that part.
I am so excited to start my break off right with not 1 but 3 great things planned for this weekend!! 1. Party with school friends tonight (think end of the year party in elementary school with the addition of adult beverages) 2. Hanging with my step brother and his wifey (adore) 3. Engagement party for Liz and John with my lovely date Keelin (girl) 4. The obvi of church on Sunday and the last outlet of the year with my 8th graders!
Bring on the fun...and to finish off this greatness, I took some pics on my walk this morning because it was beautiful outside!
This will be short because alas I have an exam in 3 hours...and what have I decided to do?? Blog, that's right.
So Georgia and I have decided that we like morning walks. She likes them because she is a dog, likes almost everything, and especially walks. I like them because they are a pretty easy way of waking myself up in the morning and energy giving. It's also really pretty out around 7-9am when we go. We went on an Easter morning walk at 7am and it was great! Beautiful morning and felt great outside. So all that to say I've been enjoying them tremendously and I took a pic from our walk this morning (even though it was cloudy) and I just wanted to post!
*Also, I have had this song in my head all day and its all because of ELW and her post about finals and I just listen to it over and over again...good stufff!!!
Even though they are the same day...Easter and Resurrection day mean different things to me. Easter is the bunny, eggs, and candy...while Resurrection day is just that. Jesus arose. from the tomb. Ahhh! It's just too much. No words I could say would even be enough, it's just beyond everything imaginable! I was thinking about it on my run yesterday and how I wanted to write a blog, but that I just didn't even know what to say. It's too good, too everything! So not having much to say...I will just add a few snippets of things I've read in the last few days.
*But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8
*As a historian, I cannot explain the rise of early Christianity unless Jesus rose again, leaving an empty tomb behind him. NT Wright
*It is written: “‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord, ‘every knee will bow before me; every tongue will acknowledge God. Romans 14:11
"...it's not all clean and pretty and neat. It's really about drunks and liars and thieves and all of us in the same house, looking out the windows into oblivion, and the only hope we've got in the world is Jesus Christ.
Maybe you're no liar or thief or drunkard, but maybe you've got broken down places in your heart or somebody's blood on your hands, and that's exactly what Easter is about. It's about Jesus Christ who was no liar and no thief, and He got what WE deserved, so we could be free. The same power of God that brought you Easter Sunday and Resurrections can bring you out of your own specific grave, whatever grave you may be in."
Because other people have said it better than I could, and because there are really no words that are enough.
There is an ache inside me, it seems to be constant. Not the kind that comes from a good workout, or an illness, or even dog-sitting for a week and getting no sleep (that last one is a reality). This ache is more subtle, yet still ever present. I don't know exactly what it comes from, but I have some pretty good ideas. Things are changing...all around. The inevitable change of the season coupled with the end of one semester and the beginning of another is to be expected but still looked forward to. I kinda mean though, the kind of change that you look back on and think, "oh, that's when things changed." Years ago I had a problem with change, I disliked it immensely and did much to avoid any kind of it. Call it early self awareness (or common sense), but I realized that change is a part of life, and actually the only thing that is for certain (besides God of course). So from this, I decided to change feelings about it, it took some time for sure, but I feel that I can absolutely say that I don't avoid change and can even look forward to it. This school year has definitely tested that, but all in all, I think I have come out on top of change. All that being said...the next 5 months will prove to follow in the last year's footsteps.
*Let's just have a recap of what is changing in the next 5 months.
-I start seeing clients at HOPE center
-I start my internship at Wellspring
-My best friend Lindsay gets married
-My other best friend Liz gets married
-I move out of the house I've been living in the last 4 years with people I love more dearly than anyone.
-My sister has her first baby, I become an aunt <---- so EXCITED!!
-My old roomie Jeanette has her first baby.
That's a lot of stuff. All stuff that I'm looking forward to, but a lot of stuff nonetheless.
And then this...
"The grass withers, the flower fades, but the word of our God stands forever." Isaiah 40:8
::sigh::
I'll take it, all day everyday. The ache can be present, but I need not worry because "this is my comfort in my affliction, for Your word has given me life."
A huge part of the ache is the desire to be somewhere else doing something (I don't even know what). BUT, I'm really glad I'm here and that I am getting to experience and be with the people that I love for these events in their lives. I would really have it no other way. I also can't even say how happy I am that I have made some kickass friends at school who are awesome and love Jesus. All this was really just a word vomit post to remind myself of the things that I'm writing. Felt good though...and here is to a great sunday. It is already proving to be for 3 reasons...1. I'm done house/dog sitting 2. I'm at san fran writing this 3. I'm heading to church
I'll leave a great song for the mood right now...well, and its just funny
